I never thought that I’d love you as much as I love you now. In a short span of time, you showed me what sincere love is. Maybe 3 months of being super close with each other is really that short (for other people, I guess?) for me to fall deeply in love with you. Well, I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you! :”> Even if it’s just for 3 days or 3 hours or 3 minutes or even 3 seconds. HAHA! Exaggerated! Basta, it doesn’t matter. The span of time doesn’t matter. I just woke up one day realizing how much I need you in my life. :”> Oftentimes, I thought of letting you go. You know, being with you or being close with you made everything else complicated. Hearts were broken. Feelings were hurt. Friendships were threatened. And maybe, just maybe, other people are still experiencing these things until now. I tried to let you go. I tried not to talk to you. I tried not to text you. I tried not to care at all. I thought I’ve succeeded until one day, in the month of November; you awakened the feeling that I tried to bury deep down my heart for so long. For once in my life, I’ve been telling myself that being with you is the worst thing that I could do. But, baby... How can it be so wrong if it feels so right? :’) How can I say to myself before that being with you is so bad if I know that it is one of the best feelings that I’ve ever had in my entire life? :’) I tried to deny it. I tried to kill the SPARK that I feel in my heart. I tried to prevent myself from feeling how much I need you and how much I wanna be with you. For the sake of other people, I tried. I’ve tried so hard, but I failed. SAD because I gave myself the capability of hurting other people that are close to me. But, on the other hand, there’s a feeling of HAPPINESS, a sense of achievement, because finally, I was able to overcome my fear that my heart felt before – the fear of FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU. :”> “This time, I’ll face my fear,” I said to myself. Denial, really, is the first stage. The spark has been there for so long. I should’ve killed it before it electrified my lonely heart who longs to be loved by someone. I should’ve killed it, but I didn’t. I let it linger instead, making it hard for me to let you go. :”> In a short span of time, I fell in love. And again, I never thought that I’d love you as much as I love you now. :”> After everything that I’ve said, I want you to know that up to this point in time, I do not regret anything that I’ve done. The decision of fighting for what I truly feel? I do not regret any of it. As I’ve told you before, I have never been this happy before. :) The feeling that you make me feel every single day is just so unexplainable. I can’t express how I truly feel through words. Words are not enough. If only I could show my heart to you, I would - for you to see that it continuously beats and that it happily beats for you. I thank God everyday for a very wonderful blessing, a blessing that I did not expect to receive this year. I never imagined myself falling in love with you before. Maybe because, I was not meant to imagine it. Fate tells me that there is no need for me to imagine anymore because it will happen in real life. I was meant to fall in love with you, and after falling, I was meant to love you even more. Thanks for being there, baby. :”> Super thank you for your love. Thank you for falling in love with me and for catching me. We may face a lot of problems and issues caused by the people around us. But as long as we’re together, we’ll make it through, hand in hand, as your heart embraces my heart & as mine embraces yours, too. I’m looking forward to more days, months, and years with you. Someday, we’ll be in Paris. Oops! The future’s unpredictable nga pala. :| So let’s not dwell on the future, as well as on the past; let’s cherish our present instead. I’ll stop the world and melt with you :”> Why you so sweet? Huh? I love you so much! 5 words. 14 letters. :’) Let’s study hard for us to have a great future, ok? I have so many plans for the future. I want you to be with me always and forever. I want to plan my future with you. But since the future is unpredictable, and since I still don’t know if I should believe in forever, and since I promised myself not to plan my future with someone until he’s already my fiancée, uhh, I really don’t know what to say next. All I know is I wanna be with you the longest time possible. Kung pwede nga lang talaga FOREVER, eh? I want you to be the person who will make me realize that forever does exist. I LOVE YOU! I’ll never get tired of saying this to you because that’s what I truly feel. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! :”>
Truly. Madly. Deeply. In Love. :”>
Oh, You Inspire Me.♥
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