Oh, Sweet November.

Written on November 1, 2011

Hello there, November. :”>

I can still remember the time when I used to hate it whenever this month arrives. November is known to be a scary one and I was still a child at that point in time. And every child would never want to get frightened by some sort.

When I grew up a little bigger, the creepiness set by this month is still there somehow, but it doesn’t bother me that much anymore. I guess time just makes you much braver. Hihi.

And when I went to college, in the middle of my teenage years, thinking about the beginning of this month (Oh, I know that it’s called Halloween) still terrifies me a bit. But, after the scary week comes the sweetest time of all. The time when it all started.

Sweetest, because of two reasons;

1. You could, by far, feel that the spirit of Christmas is just around the corner. The cold but comfy breeze. The dazzling lights. The vivid and gaudy decorations all around the city. Busy streets filled with people who are busy shopping for the grand day. And if you’re a Thomasian, the wonderful ambiance in UST during Christmas time.

2. Just read on. :”>

Oh, Sweet November. Thank you. Thank you because you were the one present when he came into my life. It was you that was there when the best thing ever happened to me. I knew the person that I wanna be with, the person that I want to love and care for, for the rest of my life.

I can still remember the feelings that are imprinted deep in my heart – from year 1 up to now. I guess the feelings will never find their way out in my heart. They’ll be there as long as I’m in love with him. And that time frame would be – FOREVER.

Year 1 (November 2009-October 2010). I knew his name. I knew what he does. I knew how much he shines and how he affects the people around him. As days, weeks, and months pass by, I knew him little by little. We were starting to get closer, inch by inch. I know who he is, but not really. He was a little aloof (I actually can’t find the right word to describe the gap between us) towards me during this year. He’s there every time I think about him, making me assume that he is thinking about me, too. I’m happy when he’s there. And I can feel that he is, too. But then, he won’t let me see through him. He won’t let me in his life that deep. Our first year was all about the laughter and comfort brought by each one of us to each other. We were so close and yet still so far. You know the feeling when you want to know every piece about his interesting life, but there’s this wall between you and him? The wall he himself built. I can still remember the time when I felt like I wanna ask him some personal questions. Haha. But I can’t. Simply because, I want him to take the initiative of letting me inside his life, as deep as possible. But, that wall between us made me much interested towards him. So I went on. The truth is, the wall is definitely too firm. Because besides the wall he himself built, there are other walls that are separating us. Well maybe, year 1 is still not ours yet. A happy and exciting year for us as we take pleasure in being new friends, and just friends. Happy, but when looking outside the world behind the two of us, it turned out to be a complicated one.

Year 2 (November 2010-October 2011). We’re now in our second year of knowing each other. As days, weeks, and months pass by, the walls separating us are finally vanishing. They’re being busted down gradually. I guess no matter how much you try to find somebody else to like or to love, or no matter how much you try to make yourself believe that there’s still this someone to whom you want to give your heart that’s already bruised and damaged because of loving that person, or no matter how much other people try to pull you away from each other for some reasons, once you meet that person, you cannot just let him/her go. That’s what happened to us. Too many walls have been there between us, but our hearts smashed them all down, one by one. I guess it’s true that love conquers all. Or the Tagalog sawikain, “O, Pag-ibig. Hahamakin ang lahat, masunod ka lamang.” HAHA. Corny, but true. :”>

And I can say, with certainty and firm conviction, that year two is really our year. FINALLY! :”> I’m finally in his life, and fortunately, in his heart too. Alone in his heart – most wonderful feeling ever. :”> The sweet YES. The sweet times we’ve spent together, even if during the first week, we are trying to hide what’s between us to avoid hurting other people. The sweet moments together. The sweet things and gifts given to each other that we will cherish forever. Sweet hugs and kisses and physical attachment. Sweet lines and compositions just to show our love and appreciation for having each other. The sweet everything about us. I love every single thing about you, about us. :”>

Year 3 (November 2011). I, and you too, don’t really know until when this relationship will last. All I know is we’re both hoping that this will last for a lifetime, forever, to infinity and beyond, for as long as we want to. I know that we’ve been together through thick and thin. A long journey is still there awaiting us. Challenges will come but I know we can make it through. Once or twice, I thought that love is not enough. There had to be something else in order for us to survive. But the love itself, the love that binds us together, proves to me that what I thought was wrong. Because even if many things are still lacking, love keeps us alive. Love makes us stick to each other no matter how difficult the challenges that we are facing might be, and no matter how rocky the road we are passing over is. I Love You So Much. And you are worth everything to me. Someone loses someone everyday. I’m fortunate because I still have you in my life.

Oh, before I forget. I shall reveal a little secret first before I put an end in this post. Did you know that during the beginning of the year 2011, I’ve planned to give him my answer on 11-11-11 at 11:11PM? I just thought that this date’s the most perfect one for us. Three years in a row, more time to know each other, more time to make you suffer as you wait for my sweet YES *kidding*. HIHI :”> 11-11-2011 is a lucky day and it only happens after a thousand years.11:11PM, on the other hand, is the perfect time to make our wish come true. Well, I guess planning ahead of time doesn’t work all the time. So our birthday became 7 months earlier than planned. Teehee :3

Thanks to the scary but sweet November. Since year 1, you will forever mean so much to my existence. Thank you. And of course, I’d like to say “I love you” to the person behind Sweet November. :’)

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

The Power of the Word “OR”.

                I’m all laid up in my bed before the sun sets and suddenly I thought about one scene that led me to open my laptop and write something about it.

We all have the power to choose. And most of the time, our choices would mean so much to somebody else. You will come to a point in your life wherein you’ll say to yourself, “I HAVE TO CHOOSE HIM/HER!” because just being with the person you love is all that matters. And the other people/things around you don’t really matter anymore.  Even if you’re going to lose them or hurt them, you don’t really care at all. As long as he’s there, you’re fine. And you’re willing to do every single thing just to keep him with you. You’ll do everything because you don’t want to lose him. Of course, I know that not all people are like this. Not all are insensitive and selfish. Not all think and feel this way. Not all are blinded by love. Not all are intoxicated with love. But, you know, once the feeling and situation’s there, you’ll ask yourself, “How can it be so wrong if it feels so right?”

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you need to choose between two people? Or choose between two things? Or choose between two events? Or choose between a person or a thing, or a person or an event, or a person or another person? (Okay, I guess I’m going to blow your mind up if I continue. HAHA J) And oftentimes, in these kinds of situation, you know that you can’t have them both. But you know what makes it more complicated when it comes to choosing especially when there are people involved? It’s the fact that if you choose one over the other, you know that the other one would get hurt or would feel worthless.

When we’re in love, let’s admit it: We tend to be selfish. As in, much more selfish as you could ever imagine yourself to be. Because you know that LOVE is the most powerful thing on earth, a feeling that could change someone into a better individual, you stick to your goal of wanting him to be the best person that he can be. But, believe me, love is sometimes ironic. You find faults in him and you think that you have to convince him to change his ways to make him better. But then, there comes the saying that “If you really love one person, you’re more than willing to accept who he is and who he’s not.” So what’s up now? What’s the right thing to do? Go on and change his ways so he could be a better person or tolerate his actions to prove to him that you accept everything about him because you love him so much? But, as I say, we tend to become selfish when we love. How? Just think about this;

There are things that you see in him and you think that it is wrong because it’s bad for him, like:

• Staying up all night doing nothing – you think that it’s bad for his health, specifically for his immune system. (Gosh, so scientific.)
• Playing video or LAN games with his friends until midnight – you think that it’s not safe to be out in the middle of the night and sleeping beyond 12MN is also bad for the health.
• Drinking alcoholic drinks – you know that it’s also bad for one’s health and you know that drunk people have nothing good to do with their lives during their “drunken state”.
• Sleeping in class – we all know that if you get caught sleeping in class by your professor, BOOM! Besides, you will learn nothing when you sleep while the lecture is on-going. You’re in school to study, not to take a nap.
• Being very close with other girls – you’re worried that people who’ll see him and are aware that he’s in a relationship might think that he’s flirting with somebody else and they may say things against him for that reason.

Of course, there are other situations wherein you’ll see something about him that you’d like to change in order to make him a better person. But, do you think that changing him will really make him a better individual? Or will he just turn into someone who’ll be better in your eyes ONLY? You oftentimes become selfish in these kinds of situation because besides that fact that you’re worried about his well-being, you also want to change his ways because you’re hurt with what he’s doing. Example;

•  Staying up all night doing nothing – you’re hurt because you also want him to sleep while you’re asleep. You don’t want him doing other things when you’re asleep. That’s why when you wake up the next day and you knew that he’s not asleep while you are, you tend to get hurt.
• Playing video or LAN games with his friends until midnight – same as the first one. As much as possible, you don’t want him awake while you’re already asleep. And there are times that you’re anxious because you know that he’s enjoying and you’re not the reason why he is. And because of that you’re hurt.
• Drinking alcoholic drinks – especially when there are girls in the group? It’s a major NO NO NO! Because you’re afraid that when he gets drunk, he’ll do something out of his mind that would hurt you like kiss and flirt with other girls or even have sex with them, say things to his friends that are supposed to be just between the two of you, or do stupid things beyond his/your/somebody else’s wildest imagination. Damn, just thinking about it just hurts so much.
• Sleeping in class – you want to have a better future with him, and you do believe that sleeping in class wouldn’t help you both in achieving your dreams, then you could add the fact that when he fell asleep, you wouldn’t get any update from him.
• Being very close with his (girl) friends – hello? Who would want their guy to be close with other girls, huh? You know that it may cause some problems in your relationship, especially when you are the jealous type of girl. My golly, this is the most painful situation ever! Knowing that your man is having a great time talking and spending time with girls other than you and knowing that other girls can make him happy, not just you. It just breaks your heart into pieces. Even though you know that they’re his friends and JUST his friends, you don’t want him close to them as much as possible because you’ll be hurt if he would. You want him them to make you feel like you’re the only girl in the world. Isn’t it possible?

Sometimes, we tend to change the people around us because we are hurt with what they are doing. We may say that we are really worried about them; yes it’s definitely part of it. But deep down inside us, we also know that there are things that could make them happy, but could hurt us a lot. Who in the world would want to suffer from so much pain? I guess no one. That’s why we tend to convince them to change their ways. We do everything to make them change their ways for us. We change them into someone who is perfect in our eyes, someone who wouldn’t hurt us. We change them into someone according to how we see a righteous man in our own perspective. But we always forget that we have different principles and perspectives in life. We see things differently. What we feel about something will not be always the same as what other people feel about it. What causes you pain might be the cause of happiness to other people. But then again, we’re talking about feelings here. We feel hurt that’s why we ask them to change their ways for us. And without us being aware of it, we make them choose between us OR the things that make them happy, which puts them in a situation wherein they’ll have to give up the things that make them happy, no matter how hard it may be on their part, just to avoid hurting us because they love us so much.  And there you have the guilt of asking your lover to give up the things that give him happiness and satisfaction, but at the same time, you are happy too, because they once again proved to you how much they really love you and how much they’re willing to give up something for love.

And then, I thought about myself being so selfish and being so immature with the way I think. But what should I do? Just get used to the pain in order to give him the freedom to be happy OR do everything to change his ways to suit my attitude? Is it really necessary to make him choose between me and other people/things/events in his life? I know I’ve been there before – making a very difficult choice. And then, I thought about the second paragraph in this blog post.

Maybe, you’re thinking what exactly is the scene that made me so enthusiastic to write something? My friend texted me and she’s asking for some advice because she doesn’t know what to do anymore. She doesn’t want to tell his boyfriend what she really feels and what she really needs because she’s afraid that the guy can’t give what she asks for. She’s afraid that he can’t change for her. And then I told her, “Hey, you know what? You have to tell him what you truly feel. You should get rid of the fear that he can’t do things for you. Do your part. Loving means taking a risk.” And then I remembered some scenes when I and my boyfriend are having some arguments. Then, suddenly, I thought of some lines in my head.

B: What’s happening? I thought we’re here to help each other grow up and be mature?

G: From the very beginning, I always thought that I’m here to help you become a better person. But, am I really making you a better one?

 Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

Get Over It.

Date Written: May 29, 2011

"The best way to get over something is to turn it into literature."

          And then I asked myself, “Bakit naman kailangan kong magmove-on, eh hindi naman ako iniwan ng taong mahal ko or something like that?” And then I closed my eyes and just listened to my heartbeat. And my heart’s beating is unexplainable. You know that feeling when you inhale and something’s like building up inside your heart, which makes it hard for you to breathe? And when you exhale, you feel so afraid because you don’t want to feel that kind of feeling anymore but you have no other choice but to breathe in again? I really hate this feeling. It just makes me wanna cry a river. (And you know what makes it much more difficult in my case? I can’t cry a river. :| Because if my parents and my brothers see me, interrogation is the next thing that’s gonna happen. And of course, I’m gonna be the one on the hot seat.)  But then, listening to my heart and feeling it beating like this made me realize one thing; that moving on is not about the reason why you have to do it, it’s about how you are feeling the moment you thought of doing it. Am I making a point? I hope you did get what I was trying to say. :) Well, if that’s the case, I guess I really have to move on with this sh*tty feeling. A feeling that just sets in you in a bad mood in an unexpected timing. You’re okay now then suddenly, you’ll feel bad again. :’( Gaaah, it sucks! >.< 

I don’t wanna leave this thing hanging. So lemme end it - the truth is I just wanna share my feelings. HAHA! And you know what? I’ve already moved on. ;)

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

What I Want VS What I Need.

For the past few days, I’ve been thinking about what I really want from a guy who would be with me as my boyfriend. Well, I’ve come up with a list. I know that this is not all, but these are the ones that I’m dying to see from a guy. Well, all I want is...

·         Someone who knows that looks doesn’t matter as long as you have a good heart; because beauty from within outshines what’s seen outside, which is just a bonus.

·         Someone who would respect my parents and family like the way he respects his; because he knows that they are the most important persons in my life and he also wants to establish a good impression in their minds.

·         Someone who would be there for me through the good times and someone who wouldn’t leave me alone during the bad times; because he knows for sure that it is him whom I want to spend every moment of my life with.

·         Someone who would immediately notice that I’m in pain and would do things to make me feel better; because he knows me so well and he doesn’t want me to have a hard time.

·         Someone who would stay with me and who would hug me even tighter even though I tell him to stay away from me; because he knows that it’s the time that I need him the most.

·         Someone who would understand why I can’t do some stuff for him at this time and would be willing to wait until I have the courage to do so; because he knows and he understands that our relationship would be at risk if I do it now.

·         Someone who wouldn’t let his anger get over him during our petty quarrels but instead, would still be calm so we could solve our problem in a nice way; because he knows that being mad would just make our situation even worse.

·         Someone who would believe in everything that I say and would not see my explanations as mere excuses or alibis for the wrong things that I’ve done; because he trusts me and he knows that I’m telling the truth and that I would never lie to him.

·        Someone who would have the courage to tell me that he did something wrong immediately so that I won’t have to hear it or to know it from somebody else’s story; because he knows that whatever his wrongdoing is, I’m more than willing to forgive him because I love him.

·         Someone who would confess that he’s jealous of the other guys around me; because he knows that I think it’s sweet of him to take possession of me and he just wants to protect me from them.

·         Someone who would be more than willing to stay away or to stop doing some stuff when I ask him to; because he knows that those are the things that hurt me so bad and he doesn’t want me being hurt.

·         Someone who would forget about his pride and would say sorry even if it’s not his fault just to make me feel better and to stop us from fighting; because he’s afraid to lose me and he doesn’t want to hurt me and make me cry.

·         Someone who will never fail to surprise me in every possible way and who would never stop being sweet towards me whenever and wherever we are; because he knows that it’s one way of showing how much he loves me.

·         Someone who would talk to me in a nice way all the time; because he knows that if he wouldn’t, I would feel bad and I would think that he’s mad or he’s not that in to me anymore.

·         Someone who would make me realize and feel that he’s not looking into other girls who are beautiful, sexy, and the like; because he knows that I easily get jealous and because for him, I’m the only girl in the world who’s worth his attention.

·         Someone who would include me in his plans for his future; because he knows deep in his heart that his life wouldn’t be complete without me.

·         Someone who knows that everything that I do, I do it for him; simply because I love him so much.

·         Someone who would accept me for who I am and who I am not; simply because he loves me so much.

    But, you know what? After everything that I’ve thought of and typed down in this blog post, I’ve realized one thing --- Yes, these are the things that I want from a boyfriend (which is YOU), but whether or not you’re someone I WANT, you should know that I’d still love you with all my heart because all I NEED is YOU. :”>

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

RE: Love is Perfect and Infinite.

LOVE IS PERFECT AND INFINITE

by: Catherine Rose Alexandria B. Santos

If you say that love is perfect (or love should be perfect), therefore no human can love. Why? Because we are not perfect. In my opinion, the only perfect I know is God. Maybe we CAN be perfect, but it's sooooo hard (to be good?) and we can never be like Him. If ever we can do it (for example starting today), still we're not perfect because we already have stains, right? Unlike Him, never siyang nagka-stain. 

We need to face reality, practically. You don't need to take the Bible, LITERALLY. You're using the Bible as your guide in life, right? Well, that's great! However, it's not that applicable everyday. We are talking about real life situations here. Have you ever experienced (all) those things written in the Bible? The Holy Spirit guided those writers which is why every word seemed so perfectly sweet. How 'bout us? Do we always ask for the Holy Spirit's guidance AND are we sure that the Holy Spirit is guiding us?

Everything has an end. There is no such thing as forever. Love in our world, is all about feelings. The way people love, there will always be faults. Maybe love is perfect BUT lovers aren’t. :P

Only God is perfect. Only His love is everlasting. We cannot compare ourselves to Him, never. 

Challenges:

• How can you say that love is perfect if you've never been in a relationship? Have you loved perfectly? How?
• How can you say that you can be perfect if you've never lived a perfect life? Or are you doing your best to live a perfect life? What’s happening now? 
• You don't need to memorize the law, what you need to do is to live by the law. Start with yourself, then your family.
• Again, we’re talking about real life experiences/situations. It’s hard to judge people/relationship/love when you're not fitting into his or her shoes. We shouldn’t be biased. We should consider every factor which affects people’s behavior and affection. 
• It’s impossible to wake a person who’s awake, same with explaining things to people who doesn’t want to listen. 

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RE: LOVE IS PERFECT AND INFINITE 

by: Jan Erika C. Custodio

I agree that nothing in this world is perfect. Only God! ♥ And love, I guess, is the most perfect feeling in the world - it feels like heaven when you love and when you're loved in return. But then, only God could love perfectly because His love is unconditional. No matter who you are or what you do, He would still accept you & love you, even if you don't love Him back. Unlike us, we only give our hearts to someone who's willing to love us back. And we love, but we always give conditions. "Don't do this or don't say that, or else, my love for you will fade." We always find faults in someone. But sometimes, we say these things because we want our loved ones to be a better person since nobody's perfect and everyone has his/her flaws. I guess, when you love, you want your lover to be the best person he/she can be.

"Everything has an end. There's no such thing as forever." God's love for us is eternal, it's beyond forever. But for lovers, I guess the statement "I wanna love you forever." means "I wanna love you until the day I die." Because unlike God, we are mortals and our life has an end. And for us humans, I guess, forever ends during the day we die. I hope you get what I mean. :)

Perfect Love is Unconditional Love. Therefore, only God's love is perfect. In our context, I think, you love perfectly when you only want the best for that person and you always want that person happy, even if what makes him/her happy hurts you. Love will last most likely when your attitude is like this. It's hard, though. Especially the second one, because oftentimes, you still love yourself more than the way you love him/her. That's why no matter how much you love one person, the relationship will come to an end when you’re hurt or when expectations are not met, and suddenly you'll realize that sometimes love is not enough.Ö

Nobody's perfect, yes. But with love, we could be the best persons that we can be. :">

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

One Of These Days.

"One of these days, I won't be afraid of staying with you."

“If a person truly loves you, he would be more than willing to wait until you’re ready.” Cliché as it may seem, that’s what my mom always tell me. And I agree with her about this matter. :)

Well... This summer, I’m facing a huge problem! I’m stuck at the house and I got no money and I got nothing special to do and I can’t be with the people I want to be with. Why? Why am I not allowed to go out? I haven’t tried and I never had the courage to ask my parents’ permission because I know that the answer will be a big “NO!!!” followed by a “Why?”  Gosh, it sucks! I wanna go out and be with my friends. I wanna go out and be with him. But unfortunately, I can’t. I feel sorry for myself and for him, because we really wanna see and be with each other. It’s been almost one month since we last saw each other. And there’s one important event that we need to celebrate! :”> :| God, why can’t we be with each other? :’( I miss you so badly! >.< What’s worse is I can’t find a way. WHY? :’( I can’t find a perfect reason so my parents would allow me to go out. GEEZ! :(

So... This is my situation every summer. I’m a complete bum! :| But this is gonna be the last summer that I’ll be like this. I swear! :) One of these days, I won’t be afraid of staying with you. If you ask me out, I’ll be able to go out and be with you. Someday, it wouldn’t be this hard and I'll have the freedom that I deserve. We just have to wait. You will wait for me, won’t you? :3

“I hope and I pray - waiting to find a way back to 
YOU, CAUSE THAT'S WHERE I'M HOME."

Waiting for the right time.

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

Makes Me Think.

Is it really much more important to show appreciation 
rather than be concerned with other's feelings?

And it really makes me wonder.

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

The Chase.

"Each and everyday, I will seek your face.

My soul is crying out for more. I want more of you.

I won't be satisfied nor be contented with where I am.

So I will apprehend 'til I'm captured by what I'm after.

And I will go, from faith to faith, from glory to glory.

And I'll forever be chasing after you.

I'll be chasing after you."

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

Sunrise.

You're the first guy that I begged to stay with me even though you're trying your hardest to push me away. It hurts so much. But, I know I deserve this. And I know that no matter how painful it is, I'd still love you because you're the only one who deserves me. You're the only one who deserves my love.

I'll be waiting for you 'til the dawn breaks. I love you.

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

WOW.

I never thought that I'd be hurt as much as I'm hurting right now. How dare you say those words to me? Words are real swords, I guess. They've slashed my heart, leaving it shattered into pieces.

You know I love you.

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥

Strangers, Again.

Just finished watching Strangers, Again. Believe me, guys! It's worth watching! Especially by people who are in a relationship or who are planning to be in a relationship with someone. 

Well, I made this blog post because, as usual, I took all of the amazing lines from the short movie. 

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Movie Description: Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable. Josh and Marissa are at a crossroads and their future is uncertain. Josh guides us through each stage of the relationship as it formed and as he predicts it will end up as. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=player_embedded)

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Strangers, Again

Note: Everything written in every stage is in Josh's POV.

“She used to be my unicorn – You know? Unbelievable, crazy, special – the girl I thought could never exist.”

STAGE 1: MEETING

It's so pathetic to see how guys would do just about anything for the right girl, but it paid off because I got her number. :)

STAGE 2: THE CHASE

Some say it’s the best part. All I wanted was to know more about her. All I wanted to do was hang out with her. The only person I wanted to talk to was her. And everytime I saw her, butterflies. :"> She was everything that I thought could be perfect in a girl. And as soon as it felt right, “Would you be my girlfriend?” ... “Yeah.” With this simple word, we began our relationship. 

STAGE 3: THE HONEYMOON

For good reason, it was the time when we could finally fully express our affection to each other and do all of the things we wanted to do as a couple. It was a dream come true! The girl I wanted to be with so, so badly was finally mine.

STAGE 4: COMFORTABLE

Being comfortable isn’t necessarily bad. It’s when we could truly be ourselves. But it depends on what you do with that comfort. Some use it positively, continuing to work at their relationship and grow together. But, others allow it to create distance. For us, it made us take each other for granted. Whether it's taking each other for granted or people are changing over time, the bottom line is: someone stops trying and feelings aren't as strong as before. This could happen over a few months or a few years.

STAGE 5: TOLERANCE

Somehow, the girl I was so crazy about a year ago had turned into someone who just wasn't that special anymore. And there we were, just tolerating each other. Arguing is one thing but feeling dissatisfied and unhappy, but the relationship is another. We tried various times to try to make changes, to fix things. But like so many couples out there, it wasn't enough. We became one of those relationships where... It wasn't bad, but it wasn't great. And let me tell you, that’s never a good way to describe a relationship.

STAGE 6: DOWNHILL

There’s not much time left once you’re here. The effort to try to make things work just isn't worth it anymore. You'll ask yourself, “What did we argue about? I can’t really remember.”

STAGE 7: BREAKING UP

This is the end of the line, the worst stage ever. This is when the two of us will start a new path, one that leads right back to where we started - STRANGERS. The change will be so drastic and so blunt, that we’ll probably get back together right away just to restore what’s normal. But this doesn’t always happen and the distance will grow. Eventually, the two of us will move on or find someone new. Things will never be the same again. Our lives will continue on in different directions. And everything we shared will just become fragments and memories. From so long ago, I’ll question if it even really happened. And all that will be left is a box where I leave stuff from a faded period of time when this stranger *shows a picture of Marissa* was the most important person in my life.

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"This is to remind you of how hard you fell for me the first time we met. Josh, I'm glad we have each other in our lives. I know that no matter what, we'll always make it through, and we'll always have a tomorrow together. Happy Anniversary!" -Marissa

Before the end of stage 4...

"Do you realize there are only two options for our future together... It's either we break up or we get married?" -Marissa

Marissa: "What do you think will happen if we don't end up together? We’re gonna hate each other? Do you think we'll keep in touch?"

Josh: "I think that if life separates us & we end up in totally different places, I’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time. And I’ll be thankful for that. And hope that wherever you are — you’ll be thankful, too. And I think that’s the best we can wish for."

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Learned A Lot From This. :)

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥