Oh, Sweet November.

Written on November 1, 2011

Hello there, November. :”>

I can still remember the time when I used to hate it whenever this month arrives. November is known to be a scary one and I was still a child at that point in time. And every child would never want to get frightened by some sort.

When I grew up a little bigger, the creepiness set by this month is still there somehow, but it doesn’t bother me that much anymore. I guess time just makes you much braver. Hihi.

And when I went to college, in the middle of my teenage years, thinking about the beginning of this month (Oh, I know that it’s called Halloween) still terrifies me a bit. But, after the scary week comes the sweetest time of all. The time when it all started.

Sweetest, because of two reasons;

1. You could, by far, feel that the spirit of Christmas is just around the corner. The cold but comfy breeze. The dazzling lights. The vivid and gaudy decorations all around the city. Busy streets filled with people who are busy shopping for the grand day. And if you’re a Thomasian, the wonderful ambiance in UST during Christmas time.

2. Just read on. :”>

Oh, Sweet November. Thank you. Thank you because you were the one present when he came into my life. It was you that was there when the best thing ever happened to me. I knew the person that I wanna be with, the person that I want to love and care for, for the rest of my life.

I can still remember the feelings that are imprinted deep in my heart – from year 1 up to now. I guess the feelings will never find their way out in my heart. They’ll be there as long as I’m in love with him. And that time frame would be – FOREVER.

Year 1 (November 2009-October 2010). I knew his name. I knew what he does. I knew how much he shines and how he affects the people around him. As days, weeks, and months pass by, I knew him little by little. We were starting to get closer, inch by inch. I know who he is, but not really. He was a little aloof (I actually can’t find the right word to describe the gap between us) towards me during this year. He’s there every time I think about him, making me assume that he is thinking about me, too. I’m happy when he’s there. And I can feel that he is, too. But then, he won’t let me see through him. He won’t let me in his life that deep. Our first year was all about the laughter and comfort brought by each one of us to each other. We were so close and yet still so far. You know the feeling when you want to know every piece about his interesting life, but there’s this wall between you and him? The wall he himself built. I can still remember the time when I felt like I wanna ask him some personal questions. Haha. But I can’t. Simply because, I want him to take the initiative of letting me inside his life, as deep as possible. But, that wall between us made me much interested towards him. So I went on. The truth is, the wall is definitely too firm. Because besides the wall he himself built, there are other walls that are separating us. Well maybe, year 1 is still not ours yet. A happy and exciting year for us as we take pleasure in being new friends, and just friends. Happy, but when looking outside the world behind the two of us, it turned out to be a complicated one.

Year 2 (November 2010-October 2011). We’re now in our second year of knowing each other. As days, weeks, and months pass by, the walls separating us are finally vanishing. They’re being busted down gradually. I guess no matter how much you try to find somebody else to like or to love, or no matter how much you try to make yourself believe that there’s still this someone to whom you want to give your heart that’s already bruised and damaged because of loving that person, or no matter how much other people try to pull you away from each other for some reasons, once you meet that person, you cannot just let him/her go. That’s what happened to us. Too many walls have been there between us, but our hearts smashed them all down, one by one. I guess it’s true that love conquers all. Or the Tagalog sawikain, “O, Pag-ibig. Hahamakin ang lahat, masunod ka lamang.” HAHA. Corny, but true. :”>

And I can say, with certainty and firm conviction, that year two is really our year. FINALLY! :”> I’m finally in his life, and fortunately, in his heart too. Alone in his heart – most wonderful feeling ever. :”> The sweet YES. The sweet times we’ve spent together, even if during the first week, we are trying to hide what’s between us to avoid hurting other people. The sweet moments together. The sweet things and gifts given to each other that we will cherish forever. Sweet hugs and kisses and physical attachment. Sweet lines and compositions just to show our love and appreciation for having each other. The sweet everything about us. I love every single thing about you, about us. :”>

Year 3 (November 2011). I, and you too, don’t really know until when this relationship will last. All I know is we’re both hoping that this will last for a lifetime, forever, to infinity and beyond, for as long as we want to. I know that we’ve been together through thick and thin. A long journey is still there awaiting us. Challenges will come but I know we can make it through. Once or twice, I thought that love is not enough. There had to be something else in order for us to survive. But the love itself, the love that binds us together, proves to me that what I thought was wrong. Because even if many things are still lacking, love keeps us alive. Love makes us stick to each other no matter how difficult the challenges that we are facing might be, and no matter how rocky the road we are passing over is. I Love You So Much. And you are worth everything to me. Someone loses someone everyday. I’m fortunate because I still have you in my life.

Oh, before I forget. I shall reveal a little secret first before I put an end in this post. Did you know that during the beginning of the year 2011, I’ve planned to give him my answer on 11-11-11 at 11:11PM? I just thought that this date’s the most perfect one for us. Three years in a row, more time to know each other, more time to make you suffer as you wait for my sweet YES *kidding*. HIHI :”> 11-11-2011 is a lucky day and it only happens after a thousand years.11:11PM, on the other hand, is the perfect time to make our wish come true. Well, I guess planning ahead of time doesn’t work all the time. So our birthday became 7 months earlier than planned. Teehee :3

Thanks to the scary but sweet November. Since year 1, you will forever mean so much to my existence. Thank you. And of course, I’d like to say “I love you” to the person behind Sweet November. :’)

Oh, You Inspire Me.♥